soooo... you're on the about page, so you probably want to know a bit more about what this is all about and why i made this. to be honest i like to think im a creative genius but really i just like to play with shapes and colours to make things look pretty, and so i do hope you like this magazine and think it looks pretty !! or else i'd be pretty crushed, but also what i don't know wont hurt me :))

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anyways, into some of the juicier stuff !! i guess i should probably start with the purpose because that seems like what people who make art and know what they're doing would do, but the thing is i didn't start this with any real intention. from as early as when i started to take an interest in art and realised i had both passion and a knack for making shit, i've wanted to make a magazine - more specifically, my own magazine. there's something so sick about being able to compile what is basically a brain dump of ideas and turn it into something so cool, let alone saying that you did it all on your own !! and you know, not to toot my own horn, but i believe that i've made something really cool out of nothing and soooo maybe there was a little bit of intention but im really proud of myself for sticking to it.

 

i do want to preface this little spiel im about to go on now by saying that i didn't start this project with the intention to sell it and so i do feel a little bad that i am, especially because i know it's not on the cheaper side. i didn't price the way i did for a profit, in fact at the time of writing this (a little under a week from presale) im not even sure i'll make any profit from selling this, but i want to share this thing i've made with the people who want it and i feel like i do have to account for the amount of time, dedication, and funds i've put towards this project. if you don't want it, don't buy it, and if you do then you can buy either a physical copy or for a little less, a digital download :)

 

my exact words throughout this whole process were "this is just a little passion project, a side hustle for my free time" but it grew a lot bigger than i anticipated and went from 10 pages to 20, then from 20 to 30, and so on. i finally decided to draw the line at 50 pages but i didn't really want it to be over yet and people who i had talked to about it said i should sell it so i was kinda like why not? but i very quickly realised that this shit is reallyyyyyy expensive and there were a lot of times where i was like maybe i should just leave it but i thought, what's all this work for if i can't share it with people? not that i really expected anyone to want it, but just for my friends and really just to say that i did it you know?

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wow, im sorry, that was kind of a lot. but i didn't really answer your question, what is dream girl all about? and well it's kinda hard to describe. i spent over a year working on this, and so my perspective at the time was being freshly out of high school (for some context, im now in my second year of uni) and being new to being an adult and the changes in your relationships and just weird transformation you do at that point in your life. there are some things in there that i feel a bit vulnerable exposing but the things i said and wrote about were very real and i did feel those things, even now reading through and doing final edits it feels like old news, there feels like this strange disconnect between the person i am and the person i was. but trust me, there are a lot of fun bits too !! like some cool art i made, and photos i've taken, and some sorta commentary stuff.

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as i said, i spent over a year working on this magazine, creating original designs, writing from both experience and personal interest, taking photos, reaching out to people, basically a whole lotta work. it took me a really long time to get to a point where i was happy with it, lots of ups and downs and editing and re-editing and re-re-editing, not to mention the fact that this was probably my 7th or 8th attempt at trying to make the magazine of my dreams and after numerous cracks at trying to nail it down, i think i finally got it !! and so, again, i really do hope you don't hate it.

 

im not really sure if im going to make another one of these because this is technically past me writing because i don't open presale for another week and im not sure how well this will do, but if you cared enough to read this whole thing then im hoping you care enough to give me some feedback because if enough people like it then perhaps i'll keep making stuff????